Friday, January 12, 2018


So, what do you do when you don't have a stomach and you don't get hungry or full?? You portion out your sizes so THIS doesn't happen!!!!
The smile on my face doesn't show the misery and awful pain I had in my gut from TOO.MUCH.FOOD! I was so relieved once that feeling passed and my system was "emptied out" if you know what I mean....
 BEFORE- TOO MUCH FOOD---so much pain!
AFTER- I was so relieved once that feeling passed and my system was "emptied out" if you know what I mean

Monday, January 8, 2018

B.S. and A.S.

We all have those defining moments in our lives.  Having this total gastrectomy surgery is one BIG defining moment for me.  I find myself referring to situations as BEFORE SURGERY (B.S.) and AFTER SURGERY (A.S.).  Even things that have NOTHING to do with surgery get these descriptions.  I was talking with a girlfriend about a face wash I used to use and even in that moment, I told her, "I used to use that face wash before surgery."  Why does THAT matter...why couldn't I just have said about 2 years ago?  Because THIS surgery was defining for me and there will always be my life BEFORE surgery and AFTER surgery.  It might drive people crazy (it even drives ME crazy sometimes), but this moment will always be a HUGE defining moment in my life.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

OVER SEAS?!?!!? :) :) :)

BEST Christmas present to date!!! My story is being shared across the WORLD!!! Here are just a couple places I have found my story has shared to out of MANY!!! :)

All I have wanted to do, since day one, is help even just one person....I've said it before and I'll say it, again, KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!!

Thursday, December 21, 2017


After my story was published in our local newspaper, it has been shared and published in other newspapers here in North Dakota and it just posted to the Billings (Montana) Gazette the other day, too. 

From there, I had an editor out of New York contact me to share my story with her, too.  Here is what she came up!! :)

Tuesday, December 19, 2017


13 years ago this HORRIFIC cancer (HDGC) took my moms life.
13 years ago I became an orphan (having already lost my dad when I was 12 years old).
13 years life changed forever.

I miss my mom and think of her EVERY.SINGLE.DAY! I am so thankful for her as I wouldn't have had this option to be preventative without her going through what she did. It sure doesn't seem like it has been 13 years, but my heart still aches none the less.
 One of our last pictures together (she was SO sick)
 Summer before she past
 My mom and I when I was younger- she loved taking us sledding
 and she HATED taking pictures, but I'm glad I would force her
So beautiful- inside AND out (high school photo)
my FAVORITE picture of my mom and I (I can feel the love in this photo)


Grabbing food on lunch and they ask, "Would you like a medium or large?" I ask, "Can I get a small?" "Most people do a medium or a large, but yes you can." Well good...cuz I'm not "most people." lol